My Cat Chance

I've never had to, in my adult life, let go of a household pet. My cat, Chance, has been around for close to 14 years and is more than a pet to me. Today is the sad sad day that I have to let her go. Deep inside, I know that she will be at peace. Deep inside I know she'll be going back into the "melting pot" of pure divine energy, and of unconditional love.

But I am going to miss her, and I am so sad that I have to let her go from my life. I always joked that she was so demanding of my attention, that she'd probably come back to haunt me.

She has been deteriorating for a few months now. It's all happened rather quickly, and I'm glad for her sake. But she is suffering now. I can't stand to think about her being in pain. Her hind legs are hurting her so much that she can't even jump onto a chair anymore. She was once able to jump six feet into the air.

Chance unnerves me. She used to sit in front of me and stare at me for as long as I'd let her. She was seeing the real me, always, without judgement. She has always looked at me with love. I think that in my reflections, there is a lot I will learn from Chance.

New Beginnings

The Halloween ritual went very well. I made a commitment to let go of certain emotions and patterns that are holding me back. I wish to let go of fear, anxiety, doubt, and judgement.

I am ready to welcome so many good things into my life. I am going to be much more aware of my inner dialogue, that running commentary. I think I have become so accustomed to it, that I've not questioned my thoughts enough. Especially with judging others. It is so easy to be on the outside looking in to someone's world and someone's problems. It is a coward's path, and I'm trying to change direction. I am ready.

I am ready to freefall. I am ready to welcome in new opportunities and new life. (Don't get me wrong about the new life - No more babies for me!)

When will you take a chance?